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I Don’t Believe in Luck.

by be.

December 10th, 2009

I don’t believe in luck. It’s something that I think I started forcing myself to think when I was a kid, and have grown to passionately disbelieve as an adult. The concept of luck takes all credit away from persistence, work ethic, and talent. It’s a simple way of saying, “I’m okay if it doesn’t happen, and I’m fortunate if it does.” This isn’t what I’m about. And I don’t ever consider myself, “Lucky”.

I believe that we create our own luck. We make decisions that create impressions in ways similar to footprints on a path, or fishing lines in the water. They are seen, but not always attractive to those who pass. But when they are, and when they are intriguing enough, they are followed. They are sought after, and trailed, and every move is watched, until the source is discovered and miraculously, those who seek the source are satiated, or, we receive our due catch.

December 10th is historically my least favorite day of the year. It marks the beginning of a two week span of abuse and mistreatment, psychological battering, no sunlight, no physical human contact, and confusion that happened to me when I was 12 years old. But it also marks the period of time that I spent with an 8 year old boy named Aaron Mathis, who has motivated my entire life since 1993.

Today is December 10th. And today, an opportunity presented itself that I couldn’t be afraid of. I have put my line in the water, and now can only wait to see if I receive my due catch. This could mean huge changes in my life, and bring my thoughts on my unlucky date with December 10th full circle.

I won’t ask you to wish me luck or have faith in my decisions. I just ask that you send your positive thoughts.

Have a good night. I’ll be out celebrating this years victories with some close friends.

LLove&Above,
be.


- Bryan 'be.' Espiritu