The BS of My Life / P90X : Day 30 Results

After completing 30 Days of P90X, I’m incredibly happy. My body is in the best shape it’s been in about 5 years, and my energy level is great. The amount of focus that I’ve been able to place on my dietary habits and how I eat for purpose rather than pleasure has been amazing, and my desire to drink has dissipated considerably due to a focus on my physical health, and a drive to continue to better my conditioning. This has obviously helped me save a bunch of money, and put me into the position that I want to be in for the years of my life which approach. A position that allows me to be at the best physical and mental starting block possible for my 30’s. (No, I’m not 30, but I will be in a few years.)

I’ve heard a bit of feedback regarding the program saying that it’s only meant for people who are already in reasonable physical condition and the diet is not healthy. Firstly, I can say this – The program is difficult as fuck. But they provide you with modified moves for every workout so that you can accomplish what you are capable of in a manner that allows you to slowly improve over the 90 Day period. I can say this truthfully because even after completing 30 days of the program, I still do modified moves, and I still do modified pull-ups to get the most out of my workout. My response to anyone who claims that it’s too hard or that it’s not for people who aren’t in remotely good physical condition is that they need to stop making excuses. There are exercises in this program that I started out doing 4 or 5 reps of that I can now do 18-20 in. And there are days where I feel like I want to just quit, or I feel like shit, or I’m tired, or I’m hungover, and I don’t want to do the workouts, but I do them anyways and I bust my ass doing them. A lack of motivation and discipline is no reason to say that this program does not work. I’m seeing results and I stick by it based on someone who is following the regimen. In regards to the diet, I understand that having such a skewed level of protein in comparison to everything else causes people to freak out a little bit, but I haven’t felt much effects from closely following the nutrition plan. After the 3rd week (during my recovery week) I got a little bit more lax on the diet and decided that if I was feeling a need to have some rice, I would have it. If I wanted it 2 times in a day, so be it. I am seeing results following the guidelines, without any drawbacks, so I’m not about to stop using it as a nutrition plan.

Here are my Day 1 – Day 30 Before and After photos:

Day 1: 177lbs.

Day 30: 165lbs.

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The rest of The BS of My Life Project has to do with ridding myself of the Bullshit in my life. This, honestly, has been more difficult than doing P90X. I’m finding that after not working for nearly 4 months now, my desire to socialize and my tolerance for being around particular types of individuals has really squirmed down to about zero. My anxiety has gone through the ceiling and my mental confidence is in a very, very weird and unbalanced place. I find myself fighting with whether my life is about my artwork and writing and pursuing those things or if it’s about being at an ad agency pushing products and being an art director. Whether it’s about the city and the lights and the busyness, or if it’s about seclusion and calm and the beach with a book and pen. Some people call this a quarter life crisis, but I’ve been through that already. I’m not sure what this is to tell you the truth. An awakening of sorts maybe. Or a realization of the importance of my crafts and how they can help others reflect on their own lives a bit. (Maybe that’s a little presumptuous. Or maybe it’s true.) There’s a very big level of uncertainty that comes with trying to clear my life of the excess baggage. No, it’s fear. It’s a fear of what I am uncertain of. It’s a fear of what the results of not having what I am used to, although it may have been poison, around anymore. And that fear is putting a procrastination stamp on me just moving on with my life.

I feel a disappearance coming on. And it’s an important one. But we’ll just see how I feel in another 30 days or so.

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